You are amazing!!

I just wached that video, here is the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5uvFMGh4_Ag

I just want to say: You are amazing. If you are reading this remember: YOU ARE AMAZING!
Thank you for being in the World, thank you for making changes in the World, thank you for being anyones friend.
Thank you for seeing people that are in pain, thank you for being you and thank you for not caring for bullys, thank you for living your life, YOU ARE AMAZING!! Remember that!
Here is another video. If you can, wacth and read this with the pictures on the video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_Am4cHMBKM&feature=share

Read this with the pictures (I wrote it :) )

It's hard to say goodbye, it's hard to leave everything and run away, it's sad to look how people are dancing but you don't, then you just let tears go, then you just have to sit on the edge of mountain and look how stars are shining just for your sadnes, it's just like you are holding the whole world on your shoulders, it's like you are at the party and nobody notises you, it's just like watching people go, beacuse of your protection, it's like you're a colour in black and white world, it's like crying for your friends and family, it's like being alive and watching all those dead people in front of you, it's like being alone in the universe, it's like squeaking for saving someones life, but nobody hears you, it's like being a man without a family, because some ˝animal˝ killed them, it's like to die in front of the water, because you were too exhausted to drink it.

 IT'S SAD.

But our tears can make a river of hope and then you see what life is for, it for leaving things behind and finding new ones, which makes you happy again and again. 

WITH THAT WE ARE BILDING OUR LIVES!!!!

And there is one thing that I'd like to say. IT GETS BETTER! Your life won't be over, when you finish high school, your life will go on, your life is going to be amazing, because you are AMAZING, don't forget that, please just don't forget that!!!

Have a very nice day everyone!!!

On Stage

Have you ever felt that?

When you walk on stage and everything changes! Everything it's like you're in the differen place, there is a whole different atmosphere. I believe that this feeling happens because of the adrenalin, which push you in the whole different direction, for me this direction in good, always better that what I think is going to be.
So what I want to say about this, when you're back stage and you're waiting for your entrance, you are probably thinking about your role, your part and you think how are you going to bring this character to life.
But when you come on the stage, you do exacly opposite that you thought you're going to do (just don't do that with choreography!!) and mostly that's a good think, because your body reacts totaly diffrent, because of the adrenalin, as I said and because of your presents on the stage and standing in front of all that people and that's what makes you present your role the best as you can.
Adrenalin gives you more power, more self-confidence and kills your fear and bad thoughts that you have in you, before you step in front of the audience.
And that is the best thing in our body, something that kills everything bad in you, something that gives you "dry land" under your feet.
But please don't forget about your preparations for your role, that is the one and only certain thing that you can prepare yourself for, so make sure that you know the part as well as you know the alphabet!
And that will make your entrance on stage even better, more sure in yourself, more self-cofident and more ready to take any mistake from you or your co-actors and turned in to something that makes sence.

So three things to remember:
1. Learn your part
2. Feel the character
3. and build your self-confidence trough your mistakes!!

If you do all those things, you can be the best actor that you can be.

So have fun with acting, but don't forget those things!! :)

My first theater experience

Hey guys!

Today I want to write about my first experience with theater and my theater life haha. In my country our school system is a little bit different (elemantary-primary school-9 years (starts with age of 6 or7 ends at 15 years old) then high school 4 years and than college another 4 years) So in my first class we went to the theater in nearest city. And we saw The Snow queen and it was just amazing!!! I still remember some of the scenes and I got some of the pictures!. So I was so fascinated about theater life and that play and at age of 7 I made (wrote-tell (I did not write well at that age haha) directed, designed and I played the Snow queen) this play in my own view and it was not that good, I was crying...because my mask riped of, in the middle of the show, but we had to went on... So that was first trying. The second one went very well! We made The Little Red Riding Hood and I was a girl with the hood! hahah! Yeah I know that I'm a guy but all the girls just didn't know how to act, so someone has to do it...And then I made some little show for christmas and story times and stuff and then I made a bellet Cinderella, I still don't know how did it,  I did that was in fourth class. I was a prince. Oh Oh, yeah one of my friend was a ballerina so she knew it and it went well but some of the acters still did not know that you just can't talk with the audience in the middle of the show.
And then I had a little break, you know school stuff. And in last grade, that was last year I made a musical called A christmas carol by Charles Dickens, and I was working like all summer for that and the whole year before for just TWO shows hahah, but is was amazing! I was Scrooge! We had an amazing teacher and amazing "crew" yeah I got just one time slipper in my head so it was great haha. And we filmed it, which was not ideal, because a man who filmed us...well I hate him and the dvd cost like a whole fortune and I did not want him, but he came in I still don't know how... So That is my theater life and I have to say that I am writing The Snow queen again! And I hope that someday it is going to be on a stage. :)

Sassy Weather Girl

I just watched that movie. It is that kind of movie that from the beginnig you know how it will end. But it is so much more.
You see this character, she is amazing! The movie should be a comedy but it is so much more, so much! Of course it is not a Hollywood movie, because it is not the shit! And I can say that! Don't care what anybody thinks, but Hollywood is all about money!
Back to the movie. It is amarican, can you imagine? There is no action there is no sexy sex, there is life there is love. And if you ever wached Revolutionary road you know what I am talking about, because the movie is amarican but Hollywood did not wanted so Britain toke it and here it is. It is an amazing move, movie about life, real life. As so it is Weather girl. They toke to characters and they shown us what is love, because we are going in victorian ages or let's say 16th Century. Husband= money+.... am, let's say money. I know that not everyone is like that, but there are many people like that, so was Sylvia (the character in Weather girl), but then everything changed because she met a friend of her younger brother. And they had sex (not sexy sex in my eyes) they fell in love and they did not know that and her friends judged her. She was "cold" as they say in the movie, but we don't see her like cold, we see her like not fully grown or wanting to much, or wanna be someone, but then of course everything changes.
So that's the movie that everyone should see or movie like that. I mean I like it, it's not the best movie, but it is a movie to watch. It is a life movie.So if you get a chance, watch it, maybe you will find something for yourself like I did. :)

Writing

You have to be born for that!!
or try VERY VERY hard!!

So what can I say about writing?
Hmh, imagination is something what everyone has (dreams, thoughts,...) But there are people, who can tell imagination in word on paper. And this is the greatest job for me... I believe; let's say that is on second place, but it is an amazing job, because jo have no limits, you have no barrier ( I don't know if that even is a word), so what I am trying to say is that writing is something what you have in your soul, what you know the best how to do (an essey, songs, stories, novels)
That is something what makes you disappear in your world, in your little room with electric fan, because you are dying of heat!

 Writing is something that substitute an alchol for me, haha ( and please don't think that I drink, because I don't)

And you just can't write all the time. You have to get an inspiration and write it down on a paper or phone. But that is something that I don't do ( or do very occasionaly) : / So do that and brings your thoughts to life.

For sometime I thought that this is something what everyone can do, they just need to focus, but when I was watching Smash ( yeah I know, I'm mad for it) There was this amazing song, that brought tears in my eyes, because I saw what writing really means, I saw that this is a true talent, that not everyone has and I am grateful for that!

And there is not much in this song, that told me this, it was a relationship between a writer and composer, it was a situation between those two characters that brought this song to life.

So here is the lyric to this amazing song:

                                                              "The Right Regrets"

A writer has the empty page
Where he can set the scene
He puts the actors on the stage
Or on the movie screen

The characters all say the words
The writer wants to hear
And then, my friend
A happy end

But when the writer steps outside
That room where he is king
He can't control when lives collide
Or what the lovers sing

And so he hides behind his words
The one place he belongs
And in black and white
He can rewrite the wrongs

Where he can find the strength to say
What those he loves should hear
And just erase mistakes she's made
Then make them disappear

Where he can change the plot
So he's a hero, not a louse
And when the curtain falls
There's not a dry eye in the house

A writer hopes to leave behind
A work no one forgets
And when he writes, "the end"
To find he has the right regrets

A writer has the empty page
Where he can use his pen
To mend his heart
And try to start
Again

This song is originaly written by Marc Shaiman and Scott Wittman

And if you want to hear it, here is a link (Debra Messing is singing!!):

http://www.youstube.com/watch?v=txAOVa_QRu8

Theater!!!

Can you imagine?!

Standing on a stage, talking to the audience. This is the best feeling. Even to those who are afraid of performing.
But just close your eyes. Imagine, that you are the person, who you admire, someone who you could never be. Someone who can do all sorts of things that you can't, someone from whom you can learn something

Theatre allows you to be that person, theater alows you to show people how you can see trough another eyes, do different things. It shows you, that you are not the only person in your body. (don't take this on a weird way...)
No, there are so many persons inside you, you just have to let them get out, you just have to let them be, who they are.
Let's say that you get a script. You see a character on the page. But that is not true, on page you see just a discripton of a person.
Sit down and think of it, try to bring this discription to life, pull somebody else from your body, be someone who you are not, be someone who do you want to be!
And believe me, you CAN find any character in person that you want to be, don't be afraid, please just don't try to move on stage like a joke, or maybe like "you". Because theater isn't just about pretending. Is about learnig about you and learnig about your skills .
I know that anyone can not be an actor, but you can try and find who you are and who you can be!

Just please don't try to hard or try to much; because you can get nuts :)

The Truth!

I never understood what the word different means, until now!

You don't know yourself, until you step in the community of people. They don't know you, they don't know any of your interests or talents or thoughts. But they just judge. I really don't know why are we doing that. But not just to people, to food too.
Just think for a moment. How it would be if the food was alive? We would be in a war now!
 But we just ignore all of that. Yes, we do. We are the most dumb species on Earth. I mean, we look at hair, make up, body... But what about the heart, and things that we don't see? What about thoughts, ha? We are reading books and they are beautiful work of art, work of human's thoughts, but we don't see their message. Can you imagine, what the world would be like without them? No letters, no words, no messages...
Ones I heard in The little mearmaid:
"I just don't see how a world that makes such wonderful things could be bad."
And sometimes we forget about all those little things, things that really matters, things that are building our lives.
Now everyone who is reading this, just stop for a moment, spread yourself out on a chair, and think of your meaning in this world, of your meaning in the space.
Why should people remember you?
Why?
If I go back to The little mermaid. There is this song called Part of your world. You would think that is just a children story-movie-musical. But it's not, look, someone wants to be a part of your world!
Would you let them?
Would you let them see what is happening in your live? Can you show them something beautiful in it?
I believe that you can!
I believe that you are great!
I believe that you can make wonderful things!
I believe that you are a wonderful work od art!
Make this world beautiful!
You can do it!
Just believe in it!

New WICKED series?

Hi guys! My dear Ozians!! (yeah i'm writting about Wicked-sorry for my english  )

So I have just have seen the news on facebook about Wicked. I think that one week ago they ask us question about Elphabas name! and I know it came from The wonderful wizard of OZ author's name! And today they told that to people who didn't know that allready. So the idea just clicked in my head. Nobody has ever written about Glindas future. So I started to think of the new charecter. And what if I take Gregory Maguire's name like he did for Elphaba and create a new charecter! And the name just came to me: GEREMAJAH; OMG is vitage and it's cool and what would this charecter be doing in the new part; Glinda is sad because of Elphaba and Fiyero is Scarecrow and he ran away with Elphaba which is not really dead; so Glinda needs someone to make her happy! Now we have to look to the original story: Oh how many simbols! But the most important one is... THE YELLOW BRICK ROAD! And who did it? Oh just remember, we don't know. But I have an idea... Emerald city is like a big kingdom, what means that there are so many of royal names like dukes and ladies and so many others, and they have theirs property like estates, fields and factories. Oh what? Yeah factories, yellow bricks, dukes and Geremaja...AND HERE COMES HIS PAST! So we have the new character. All that's missing... oh yeah the story! So we have sad Glinda on celebration and we have lovely duke looking at her and he walks to her and there it is...The magic of Fairy tale... love on the first sight. Now she is older and smarter, she doesn't see a prince in him, she sees the loving heart in him. With the Question of: Whats wrong? She don't know what to say because she promised (remember the secret of Elphaba's good heart) so she just pass it... Let's go three years north  so let's go three years later on the same day when they are engaged! And she's sad again, she's in the secret room, where she keeps Elphaba's things (hat and grimmerie) And she comes there every year on the same day, but now she's is crying very laudly and her fiance Geremajah just came home and gone to look for her and then he finds her and asks that question again, but now she just can't pass it, so she tells him about the good in Elphabas heart and the true story of her and Elphaba together. Let's say that's the end of the first book. 
In the beginning of the second book the news from Glinda come to Geremajah mother's which is the true gossip girl/maid so the truth comes in the Emerald city and first they (Ozians) just don't believe that. So Glinda, which knew that and she just shouldn't opened her mouth, so she have to clean this (her) mess... and when she, like the Miniser or Gaverness of Munchinland (I think that that what she becomes) Tells the truth and in the end of the secend book she become: THE WONDERFUL/GALINDAFUL GOOD WITCH OF OZ. 
The third book is not so clear in my mind but it's going to be about: Glindas first child-girl named Windarch (little bit from Winnie Holzman) which as the public figure have to go to the specific school whitch is in Somewhere over the rainbow ok let's stop there because i have to read Son of a witch first and discover if Elphabas son can be the lover of Glinda's doughter and bring them together(Elphaba and Glinda) and they could rule the Oz together thats mine lovely ending!

hope you like it and comment if you know about Elphabas son please

Smash!

I was happy last year when I descovered the show Smash, hello broadway on tv people! And I'm that kind of person, that when I see something I want it. But not like store want it, but make want it. (like Coraline doll or Spiderwick's field guide,...) So I said I will do it, I am gonna write a script for Bombshell (if you don't know that is a musical that they are making is Smash) so I did it in two weeks... And some say that is not good, or that it need a lot of work. But F them, I don't care what people think, I care what I think.
And then suddenly the Smash was over, really over!! I did not cry or anything but I was deeply sad. And then I was proud of my script. And now I am too.
And then when I was on the top, someone always shows out to bring you down, but I don't blame them. One almost called the police, because he said that I copied his script and I did not even see it, because he never posted on. But than I said ok, if you have problem, I don't want to hear them, so I change it! Yes I did, and then, the new comment was: "It still needs a lot of work bla, bla ,bla." But I think that is great I love it I am pround of my self.

I just can't believe that I wrote that! OMG! I was selfish! SELFISH! I'm not that, at least I don't want to be selfish! Such a strange word; It has fish in it. wierd!

So I apologise to everyone, who read that, because it was ugly! And I have to say that now I do respect "reviews" or critiques, because people have their minds and I respect their's words. I really do.

And I have to say that I talked to reviewer or critic as you would call him, and we became friend by a very strange conversation. hahaha

So I am a fool sometimes, but I am trying to be a good person. Hahaha

So if anyone wants to see it just comment below
And I hope that it doesn't suck that much : /

Summertime sadness

Summer is here, worries are gone. I am dying. I'm more winter person, that a summer one. And yeah I am born in summer, wow. I needed that.
I like to worry, I like doing somethig, writing something. Last year I was writing our musical A cristmas carol, that is a work, and now...school is over and I have nothing to do, nothing. If my parents are reding this: No I won't clean or cook, no I won't go out with my friends; No i'm just not that kind of person. I can't even draw or paint, where is my inspiration...!
OK I am crazy, it is the first free day of school and I am so worry about! Oh here we are I do worry about stuff that I really don't care about. This is so lame, but it's my first blog so I don't care about it, and I have something to do :) ;)