Hey guys!
I was just talking to a friend and remember what a person I am... Well I won't really talk about me as musch, but I will talk about innerself (i have no idea if that is a word, but I'm trying to say that I'll be talking about feelings and thoughts inside of our head; wow that sounds just crazy...)
Well I talked about this before, but I want to bring it up again.
I believe that persona can change in different situations (different places, with different people)
But it is still you. I'm trying to say that a person can be two people in one, two personas in one (maybe like gollum :/ )
What is means to be free, how do you act when you are free? and when are you free?
I think that we are never free, we always think about our behaviour, we always try to fit in, but in our own way. And maybe I'm a very happy guy in the great company and with great friends, but maybe I talk and think too much when I'm alone and I'm not humoristic when I'm alone.
When I'm with friends I'm very loud, but when I'm alone, it's like I'm not even there, I'm quiet and stilll.
And I'm sometimes asking myself who am I?
What kind of person am I?
It's sounds weird to me when I like read stuff that I wrote in the past, cuz it's like it wasn't written by me, it like I can go to that very special place in my mind that speaks for itself and I'm just a puppet for it.
O god, this is getting really weird, but here is another think.
I usually write poems...well there are usually about love, but I'm not in love and I don't want to be, not like never, but I enjoy being like this, but always love comes out always and I'm not even thinking of it.
I guess I really like the idea of love, I really love fairytales really! And I watch Once Upon A Time and it's just amazing cuz it's about love and hope.
Oh and maybe I don't feel love like a sexual feeling, but I feel love and seeing great in people and being friends with them, but when I think of it it always comes out as this fairytale love. And I sort of like that.
Hahahaha, I'm just laughing, cuz I'm anwering all my questions and I'm getting to know myself and I really love weekend when I can just think and enjoy. Cuz I think people really don't take much time to think, you know... I heard this and I think that is from Lady Gaga and how she spends more time in bed, but not sleeping like we all do (for just 5 minutes, which means a whole night to us), but for thinking about the day, herself, plans, future and I believe it really helps to know yourself it's like a date with yourself, like a breakfast of good thoughts to start a day. We should all do that sometimes. Don't you think so??
Now let's talk a bit about THE DARK SIDE hahaha, I wanna talk a little bit about those who never do that, and who are very high above, well sometimes they can be amazing people (like in the Austenland) but sometimes they are just judges. Now imagine them in court, wow we'll be all dead then. And I think the problem is that they don't think too much. Maybe they are very msart and know every aswer to every question, but this smartness in not life, well it can be a base of it, but not life, cuz you have to understand much more then math and science to be a human a person and some just don't know that. And it really hurts me when I see something like that happening, cuz I feel like I'm being insulted, cuz I was for my whole life, but I've grown and I stop listening, but still I hear thoes who are insulted and I know how they feel, and really I don't see a point in that. Is really that cool to be King/Queen of bullying is it that awsome to be that perfect to insult others?
I ask you to think next time before you say something, I ask you to feel beauty and love.
I want you to just take a few minutes and think about you, your friends , your plans, your goals and you will grew, your persona will feed on those thoughts!
