Talking!

Hey guys!

I hope you don't hate ma cuz I didn't wrote for a long time, but I just don't want to repeat myself over and over again and I don't know if I ever wrote about this before, but yeah it's 3 am, still up, deep thoughts are coming to me and I don't want to lose them so I'll share them.
And this will sound desperate or maybe corny, but I hope that you get something out of these posts and I hope you enjoy them :D

So lately I opened myself to a little bit of psychiatry, well it wasn't anything big hahaah, but I really enjoyed talking and finding solutions with a person that I was talking to. I hope she won't be mad or anything that I'm writing this, but I just have to.
And she is "unfortunately" going to the psychiatrist. And I don't know if you from US, think that's pretty common, but here in Slovenia that is a bit taboo (but now it's like very cool thing, but people with real issues don't want to talk about it, but with a bottle of vine, people talk ;) sorry!)
But she talked a bit about the meetings and the way that they are talking (I know that there is a word for that, but it's there on my tongue and it doesn't want to come out, trust me I tried), so I really liked, how the psyhiatrist is really trying to get her to find the solutions and her problem is that she doesn't want to listen, she just talks and feel miserable about her life.

Ok, here I think I'll start talking about the thing that I want to talk about. So first of all, it's really important to talk to yourself (sounds creepy and totally useless cuz you're doing it but...), but not those regular stuff, but get deep with yourself, talk about yourself ask why, ask what is the real problem.

People are obsessed with love, now I understand why the parents married their's kids in the history, so they wouldn't get over excited about love and then totally break because of that, I mean if someone you don't really love is screwing someone else that won't brake you that much to have all of these "mean thoughts" (please god you were put here for a reason! Why was it you? find that!!!) ( *about the history tragedy* ok, that's not totally true that happened, cuz you have to live with that person and you don't have a choice, but to "love" them/ really deeply care about them), so what I mean to say is, that they wanted to protect kids from love :/
(wow! I feel like I'm the devil or something like that LOVE IS BAD!! NEVER FALL IN LOVE!! XD) I totally don't want to say that, I want to say that you have to look for the right person, not just someone who would stick their tongue in your throat and look at you very lovely, but then never call, but smeone, with who you don't have to do all of this stuff to know that he/she is the right one.

Enough about love, cuz I'm not an expert and some people will really hate this part, but what can I do...
So back to tha talking. Two things! First if you are quiet, you are not doing anything, well you are, you're pushing the pain in the back of your mind, and when the good thoughts will be gone, the bad ones will chasing you back, you have to face with the pain and problems! And I KNOW that this is the hardest thing to do, but if you can face with those thoughts you're already a winner! Now, up there we were talking about talking to yourself, now that won't work for everyone, but it can't do you bad. Before you go to sleep (like me, that's why I'm still up now writing this), before you close your eyes, look in the dark and just think for a moment, thoughts will come, don't worrym, when you have them just talk about them (BTW my best song is now on radio XD maybe this post will get any cheerful) and you'll see that when you start talking about what a miserable person you are, you will realise that you can fix all of that with the simplest things, it really amazing! I found them so can you!
But, if this is not working very well, you have this one friend who won't judge you, talk to them, but tell them that you just want them to listen and that you want to help youself and if you see, that this is not working maybe together you can find a solution (I always forget that word... -_-).
I totally believe that in school you didn't understand the thing until you started to talk about it! You know your answers, you just have to let them out and if you're quiet, you're not doing anything, just making it way worse.

Solutions are like bubbles, if you don't blow them them won't happen/appear, so get you stuff together and remeber all you need is to talk, to open those secret mouth of yours and let it out. JUST LET IT GO, LET IT GO, YOU CAN'T HOLD IT BACK ANYMORE! RIGHT?

+ To this friend of mine I gave three metaphors and of course I'll share them (and they are from my imagination :D )

1. So the man is riding the camel and they are traveling through Sahara and they are almost there, almost and the camel dies because she didn't have enough water to drink. What will the men do? will he die aside her?
Will he give up? NO! he will go and save himself he will run cuz he believes in himself!
AND I WANT YOU ALL TO BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!

2. The miner in very cose to find these special diamonds, he is so excited and he is digging and digging with his pickaxe, but he is digging so hard that hid pickaxe breaks, he taked out those sensors for diamonds and he sees that he is alomst there. But he don't have a pickaxe will ge give up? I don't think so he'll dig with his little hands like a crazy dog, cuz he really wants them and he won't what? He won't GIVE UP! NEVER GIVE UP, ALWAYS REMEMBER YOUR GOALS AND WHY DO YOU WANT TO ACHEVE THEM!

3. Ok you have your watch (antique one) and it breakes, so you take the other watch (different model) and you try to get the clock wheel form that watch to work in your antique watch, but it won't work, cuz the clock wheel doesn't fit. SO IF YOU TRY TO FILL A SPECIFIC PLACE IN YOUR HEART WITH SOMETHING THAT DOESN'T BELONG THERE IT WON'T WORK! YOU HAVE TO LOVE YOURSELF FIRST SO YOU CAN LOVE ANYONE ELSE!

PHRASE FROM DAEE DAYS WITH SIERRA BOGGESS: "YOU ARE ENOUGH, YOU ARE SO ENOUGH, IT'S UNBELIEVABLE HOW ENOUGH YOU ARE!"

P.S. you get this creepy painting of mine (I was learning on illustrator- don't judge)

and if you want you can help me with topics to wrote about :)

Have a nice day everyone!

pa3k :D

Poetic Human Beyond The Worlds

So lately I was thinking about this film that I watched like two years ago Hugo. It got me thinking about the relationship between the boy and the machine-the  robot (i don't like that word) let's say that is mechanical human. And it got me thinking- the mechanical human couldn't work, because his heart was locked the boy had to find the key to find what mysteries he holds inside.

A body is just a mediator, composed of little wheels, pistons, tanks, circuits. A body is only like a hanger on which you can hang a hat, coat or lean a walking stick against it. A body has a pair of wings, they are strong, full of light feathers, that are raising the body up to the sky, clouds, dreams, dimensions. The wings are the heart, that gives you sensuality, that gives every touch softness or wrath.

A body will fly, wherever mind will take it. Mind isn't some kind of material that is building or running the body, mind is a product that arises, like a reaction, when one of pistons move. When the mechanical body is running, the smoke is twisting out of it, smoke that is ascending up high, that smoke doesn't have any limits like mind, that is taking you on a journey of life.

Sometimes things get lost, sometimes you lose everything you have, but there is always an opportunity that you stand up, there is always a signpost standing in front of you that says "Second Chance". Not everybody can see it, some see only the darkness.
I think that sometimes is okay, that things get lost; I think that is okay, that we let tears out of our eyes; I think that is okay, that with every move and every word we can start over!

Even if every word doesn not stay, even if every shape doesn not stay, it's sense stays. It's important what we do with that sense: Can sense fall into oblivion? We can forget about sense, but it won't dissapear, it will come back when we least expect it and it will put you in mind and it will make you cry.
I think that is okay that sence, that could be called a soul from the pulpit, but not as a soul that human has, not a soul, that takes you to heaven or wherever or maybe nowhere, I'm talking about a soul, that is designing you right here where you're standing, I'm talking about a soul and sense, that you usually forget about. When you have a chance, when sence is still holding on, to your shadow TAKE IT and saw it to yourself and show what that sence is about, give it new words, enrich it with new ideas and give it a new life!

Come with me beyond the worlds, I think it's going to be marvellous!!

Hope you're having a great summer

Pa3k

My story

I just found out that I've never told you my story and it's going to be a story about finding happines

Once upon a time, there was this house, no it wasn't a big one, but it was very long, it had big living room, full of wonderful things that you could just look at, and in the back, there was that very special room, full of wonders, full of magic, but in there there was that special spell called love, everybody living in this house could feel it, cuz the door was always open, even the people who would visit it, were changed but this magic.
But some dark day that magic was gone...gone for good...The beautiful long house, became just a blank new page in the boring book that nobody would take down from the library shell. So dad and two boys moved out, cuz they didn't want the blank page they wanted a new story, they wanted a new world full of new wonders. They moved to this garden, it used to be called The Garden Of Colours, but there were no colors to be found, no blossoms, just empty grey....
One day, the little boy came to the door of this garden, he entered. He was holding this little doll in his hand, it was devidet in two halfs, one was bright, he named it The Kid of The Sun, and the other one was dark, almost black, he named it The Beautiful Creature of The Dark. Oh how he loved that doll! He couldn't live without it, it reminded him of that magic in this old long house. He entered the garden. He couldn't believe how could somebody abandoned it, it looked so beautiful, but still bear. He was walking along that grey labyrinth and he found out that he had lost his toy, his one and only memory of the magic and that special spell, he ran back, but he couldn't find it, it was gone...like that magic...
He was crying so hard nobody could stop him, nobody. Through the time wound healed, but never disappeared.
One day it itched him so hard, that he went to this door again! He pushed them, and entered, it was even more terrifying then before, all the spiders and the voices were there, but he grabed all of his courage and went through the labyrinth again. He was walking and thinking when he suddenly triped and fell. It hurnt him so bad, the blood showed on his knee, when he saw through what he triped, he blew all the dust away from it and found his old charm-the doll! He picked it from the groudn, and while he was getting up, he beheld a doorhandle, it was a beautiful wooden doorhandle. He cleaned the dead climber of it and he found the beautiful hand-carven wooden door. He tried to opened it but he couldn't it was locked. He was sad again, he took his doll and turned away. He notised that around doll's neck there was a string from which the key was hanging. "How did it get there?" he asked himself and took it from the doll, he turned back to the door and placed the key in the lock. "It fits!" As he was tuning the key the light started to appear from behing the door, it was so bright that he had to cover his eyes to open the door, he stepped through it! He was very curious to see where did he come to, so he uncovered his eyes and saw this magical word! It was a garden full of blossoms, colors and magic, the one from the old long house. Blossoms came to him and said: "finally the saviour came and unlocked this ugly door that was keeping us from the world, that locked us here, so the world could be blank as the new page, the sad page in the book!"
All creatures ran out on the grey garden and filled it with colors, happiness and MAGIC. The boy was happy again as all the people around him. And the magic wasn't cought in this little room or behind wooden door. Magic was free as this child was! Magic saved him, and made him happy as he was before!

The end

Darkness is you

Hey guys!

Not long ago I was looking at some of my old draft, and I found cuple poems that had the same idea, but were shown differently.
They are talking about being who you wanna be and who you are.
And we are all uncomfortable with our own lifes. I mean nobody can say that he/she is perfect, cuz then nobody on the planet would wear makeup and we would be made out of plastic and yeah believe me or not walk naked... but yeah...

We always say, we were made this way, cuz we are trying to find a way to like ourselves, it wouldn't be ok if you would wake up everyday and slap yourself, cuz you don't like your face.
And I think that that shows how strong are we actually: to find a way to like ourselves and not caring so much how are we are acting on the streets with friends or anywhere. That really is the strenght!
And I really like when people do show their flaws, cuz they tell you who this person really is and no powder, no fake/acted smile can't show that.
And that's why we are different, that's why we are beautiful in our own way. Sometimes I like to ask myself, what about animals, can they be ugly??
Well I haven't seen an ugly cat, or cow, or dog (not talking about breeds, but try to imagine you favourite breed). And I think that is because we have this perfect idea of a cat or a dog and if it has like a bit bigger snout or can't open eyes that far, or have wider face, we just don't pick up on that, cuz we see just a cat (or any animal that we like), and we all know that they are cute so nobody really gives a s*** how they look like, cuz they are cute anyway.
But we are not looking at people the same way, cuz we are not covered with fur, we are showing our skin, true face, and nothing can't really hide it (well a mask can, but I really don't believe that you'd wear a mask to a mall) But we are finding places, where our look isn't that important, like an artist paints on his canvas, like a sectretary works on the computer.
And then suddenly people are just starting to like you, because of your work and they are starting to like how you look, how you act, how you dress (like basicly, if we look at the "famouse" people they really aren't that perfect, we just make them that way, cuz we like them!) And I really love that!
Big A+ to all of you for doing that ;)

Yeah and I'll finish this post with a poem that I creatured from those different poems, and it is about finding your special place where you can feel beautiful, great even perfect!

In the garden of colours, where I stand,

I look around, I look at my hand

Red and blue and yellow, 

Are the colours that I see?

But what about me?

I'm just dark and just empty.

I clash with everything,

I don't deserve my place in the spring.

But when the sun goes down from the sky,

I see why do I have to defy.

It's not that I'm empty and that I'm stark,

It's because I'm the beautiful creature of the dark!

Have a very nice day and enjoy your Flower kingdom

Patrik :)

The Birth of Venus

Hey guys!!

It's been long since I wrote, had work to do and yeah I've been lazy
But I want to share this song that I wrote, well I wrote it for Lady Gaga for her birthday, I know she didn't see it, but some people did, and I that idea came to, cuz I was thinking well I have to draw something for her (well that "for her" sounds weird haha, but let's say draw something for me, because of her, or to show what she means to me) and there wasn't enough time, or the idea to draw or paint something so I was thinking and I said well you can write too, why not write a song, that isn't just about her, but about your feelings, life, art, love and whatever comes to my mind and I sat down and just relax and tried to find some idea and simbol to write that song, and since venus came out and i really love the song, I was waiting for it, and I said, yeah why not make a story and mix Lady Gaga and the original myth in it. And yeah it just came out haha. I know that I'm not englishman or american and that leads to, that I'm not like the greatest poet in english haha, but I still did it. So here it is: A story behind Bottichelli's The Birth of Venus!

The Birth of VENUS

When the seed fell down and fused with sea,

The sunray lit up on you and me.

Then suddenly time stoped running

The earth is standing still,

There is she!

Look, she’s so stunning!

Now’s the time, seashell is rising,

Now’s the time, darkness is falling,

The wind finds spring,

Adam gives Eve a ring,

Here is she,

VENUS thee!

Every leaf and every flower are as one,

Every man and every wife have a son,

And every god,

Gives her a nod!

The love between a sky and the sea,

The love is growing between you and me,

Here is she,

VENUS thee!

The dawn lights up the wonderful day,

There is she, made of fairy’s clay,

Every flower is now blooming,

The earth is standing still,

There is she!

Look, she’s so stunning!

Even unicorns with the purest heart,

They came to enjoy moments of art,

On the edge of glory she’s standing,

The earth is staying still,

There is she!

Look, she’s so stunning!

The love between a sky and the sea,

The love is growing between you and me,

Here is she,

Venus thee!

No one can express how she’s feeling,

She’s like bright chandelier on the ceiling,

But then she falls…

The earth is standing still,

Where is she?

From seashell she rolls!

Now’s the time, seashell is rising,

Now’s the time, darkness is falling,

An arrow finds her heart,

She is falling apart,

Here she’s lying,

She not flying!

Then her people, that she’s now ruling,

They come, helping her is what they’re doing,

The princess now is dying,

The earth is standing still,

Creatures like monsters,

Are coming above her, they are flying.

Now’s the time, last sunray is coming,

Nothing, but she hears just humming

A sunray finds her mark

The arrow is now glowing in the dark,

Here is she!

VENUS’s flying!

Love is ruling on the great earth,

Gods gave us her in the loving birth,

Nothing else can’t hurt her,

The earth is standing still,

Applause is rising down the heel!

“Happy birthday!”

They are screaming,

Little monsters,

Yours forever they‘re now gleaming!

Me and You, Persona and Body, Love and Life

Hey guys!

I was just talking to a friend and remember what a person I am... Well I won't really talk about me as musch, but I will talk about innerself (i have no idea if that is a word, but I'm trying to say that I'll be talking about feelings and thoughts inside of our head; wow that sounds just crazy...)

Well I talked about this before, but I want to bring it up again.
I believe that persona can change in different situations (different places, with different people)
But it is still you. I'm trying to say that a person can be two people in one, two personas in one (maybe like gollum :/ )

What is means to be free, how do you act when you are free? and when are you free?
I think that we are never free, we always think about our behaviour, we always try to fit in, but in our own way. And maybe I'm a very happy guy in the great company and with great friends, but maybe I talk and think too much when I'm alone and I'm not humoristic when I'm alone.

When I'm with friends I'm very loud, but when I'm alone, it's like I'm not even there, I'm quiet and stilll.
And I'm sometimes asking myself who am I?
What kind of person am I?
It's sounds weird to me when I like read stuff that I wrote in the past, cuz it's like it wasn't written by me, it like I can go to that very special place in my mind that speaks for itself and I'm just a puppet for it.
O god, this is getting really weird, but here is another think.

I usually write poems...well there are usually about love, but I'm not in love and I don't want to be, not like never, but I enjoy being like this, but always love comes out always and I'm not even thinking of it.
I guess I really like the idea of love, I really love fairytales really! And I watch Once Upon A Time and it's just amazing cuz it's about love and hope.
Oh and maybe I don't feel love like a sexual feeling, but I feel love and seeing great in people and being friends with them, but when I think of it it always comes out as this fairytale love. And I sort of like that.

Hahahaha, I'm just laughing, cuz I'm anwering all my questions and I'm getting to know myself and I really love weekend when I can just think and enjoy. Cuz I think people really don't take much time to think, you know... I heard this and I think that is from Lady Gaga and how she spends more time in bed, but not sleeping like we all do (for just 5 minutes, which means a whole night to us), but for thinking about the day, herself, plans, future and I believe it really helps to know yourself it's like a date with yourself, like a breakfast of good thoughts to start a day. We should all do that sometimes. Don't you think so??

Now let's talk a bit about THE DARK SIDE hahaha, I wanna talk a little bit about those who never do that, and who are very high above, well sometimes they can be amazing people (like in the Austenland) but sometimes they are just judges. Now imagine them in court, wow we'll be all dead then. And I think the problem is that they don't think too much. Maybe they are very msart and know every aswer to every question, but this smartness in not life, well it can be a base of it, but not life, cuz you have to understand much more then math and science to be a human a person and some just don't know that. And it really hurts me when I see something like that happening, cuz I feel like I'm being insulted, cuz I was for my whole life, but I've grown and I stop listening, but still I hear thoes who are insulted and I know how they feel, and really I don't see a point in that. Is really that cool to be King/Queen of bullying is it that awsome to be that perfect to insult others?

I ask you to think next time before you say something, I ask you to feel beauty and love.
I want you to just take a few minutes and think about you, your friends , your plans, your goals and you will grew, your persona will feed on those thoughts!

The night circus!

Hi guys!

I don't think that will be the review of the book (simply, because I didn't finish it yet :/ ) but it will be looking at this book from my point of view!

So I'm really mad for everything victorian (well not the toilets...)! I like the feshion, art, houses, life, feeling, food... and now the new love is here: Magic in the victorian era. Not that I believe in magic, but it would be so much fun if magic would exist!
I always loved witches, magic everything that farytales has hahaha. And with magic comes the mystery of it, and how can somebody tell or explain magic to us. And magic can be good, bad or something in the middle! (Little in the middle!) But it will still be beatiful, even if it's bad.

And the next mistery is of course the circus! Nowdays the circus has lost it's power if you ask me! Now we see a circus like doing weird stuff with animals and blah blah blah... But like 100 years ago that was different, there were small people, there were mermaids (oh, I could write about them, maybe another time :) ), there were illusionists and all weird stuff.
Now we don't have this anymore, because we have science and we know about those stuff. But in the victorian times that was totally different, people were amazed by the let's say darknes of the circus, by the feeling of it, by the mistery that circus had.

If I could go back in time, I would definitely visit the circus! I wonder how it would be...

well that's why I'm reading The night circus!
It has that feel of magic, the book sucks you in it and you are there, standing in fron of that big, weirs, white flamed bonfire! And there are those little paths that leads you/takes you to the different performances and I think that's magic! That journey through your imagination.

I'm not going to talk a lot about the story, cuz I don't know how it ends, but I really like (I just don't like that he-Marco loves two women :/ weird, but I'll let the story to tell me and takes me where ever it wants to)

I have to say that the book is for slow reading, so if you choose to read it, take time, maybe on the train or when your bored, coz story is big and that "biggnes" will take you through the journey that you can't imagine!
And you'll feel that you're a part of it, really!

So if you read it, or if you are reading it, tell me your thought and feeling (just please don't tell me the end)

ARTOPOP and Applause + VMA

Hey guys and all little monsters here!!

You don't know about this, but I'm very big, huge fan of Mother Monster aka Lady Gaga!!
Applause!!!!! death!!!! Love it love it love love it!!!!!!
ARTPOP!!!! CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!
VMA I almost died cuz the live broadcast didn't work, but when Gaga came up, everything worked!!

So today I want to talk about Applause and Gaga's performans on VMA!!!

I was blown away by her, song of course, costumes, past in the performans, and all rising if I can call it that way.

I'll start with the set and what I think about it in the artistic way.


I think that it shows the world which is not explored yet-the white colour ( like ARTPOP era is not explored yet) And Gaga is like a new thing in it and as we know that the set is white, she comes out in white (bloody Mary) which shows that she had been put in this world pure and innocent and she is trying to fit in and then she is black (amazing bodysuite).

 I think that that it shows her difference in that world and her desire to be different and be herself no matter what anyone thinks (you know black vs white) And as the performans is going on, we see her in more colours and diffrent costumes (presenting different eras and her past) in my mind that shows how she grown and how she is growing from that boring white world and how she is exploring herself as a person and as an artist, but still, there is the white world behind her-the world that doesn't understands her. And there are dancers in black too, in my mind they are us, little monsters, which helps her being up there between the stars and she is the queen,because she is a fighter and we love her so so so much because of that.

Now I wanna start where I finished in the set, about her being queen.

If anyone watched the interview on Good morning America with Gaga then you know what she means about the song and how and why did she wanted that clown make up on.

Gaga is a special singer and performer and special person. She doesn't want fame or money, she wants love and she wants to be loved and she wants to take that feeling on stage and strew this feeling between Little monsters and make them feel good and special in their's skin and persona (that's why I love her so so much)
And she made/wrote Applause because she wanted to show fans that she has something beautiful to give them and live because of that and I think that she shown that, she really did!

So if anyone has their own opinion or thoughts about that, I wanna see your comments!

Be happy, don't be afraid to be yourself, keep on and stay tuned!!

P.K.

Beauty of writing the blog!

Hey guys!

Today I'll talk about the blog and me blogging. Why did I start? What do I want with that? What do I think about it?

1st how did I start? Well while I was looking for some answers and thoughts about some theme (I don't remember what was I looking for) I saw/read some posts on the Blogger and they were about them selves and their's days and stuff like that. If you read post here on Blogger you probably know what am I talking about.
So I didn't want that, I'm not famous and nobody is interested in my day or what am I doing so I started with posting my paintings and then I left for like a year or something like that. And if you read my blog (talking to those two person, who are reading me; btw thanks for taking the time for reading this) you know that I write when I have something to say, so my post are written like every week or maybe not, it depends on when I have the inspiration to write.

So for today, I'll be one of that other persons who are talking about them selves (don't take me wrong I talk about myself too, but "in the different way" (?), hope that you know what am I talking about)

My first post was I think Somertime sadness, I know it was lame and boring, but in that moment I felt like dying... hahaha bored, but my feeling-and I was talking about myself. That start was something that fell of me, cuz I wanted to talk and speak and tell people something, even 1 or 2 I don't care, I just hope they like it :). Something pushed me to speak and talk and inspire people trough my thoughts and way of living my life and then I started with things that inspires me or helping me or even troubles me and trough my process of living I want to teach you and help you with some stuffs/things. And as you know I always start with the opening (sometimes question, sometimes just a pologue) and then I start to talking about this perticular thing with meaning in my life or how do I do that and then I try to inspire you and give you some tips to be better at this, to don't be afraid of doing that, everybody make mistakes (like today I got sharpie on our leather couch, thank goodness nobody was hope, so I had time to clean it, uhh Hallelujah that was something)

these are some of the posts, in others I talk about my look through the movie, or book (I really haven't done the book yet, but I'll do it, already have a book :) ) so throught those posts I want to bring your eye in the hidden place of movie and maybe see it from the other engle, maybe better one (i don't know, nobody complained about it, should I add yet? )

So this is my prospective of seeing my writing and here it comes tips and tricks about it.
Maybe don't listen to me, cuz I don't have a lot of viewers, but if you do here is some of my tips!

1.Don't be afraid of doing the blog, if you're doing cuz you like and not because you want to be popular and shit, I mean along the way that could or should happen (didn't yet with me)

2. Write and thing about things that you know and love, for those you don't know ask or instructe yourself about it.

3. Don't ever foget about your feeling, put that in your post so you give something more something special in it

4. Don't be sad if not a lot of people are reading you, you write from your heart and people who see and read that can be happy, even one or two

5. Don't rush while writing, cuz thoughts comes in different moments

6. Be happy that you have a blog and you can write from your heart not just about your day and how were you washing the dishes :/

I hope that help you in some way and here is the final touch to that post...the epilogue

I love writing the things that I love and the beauty that those things has. You'll get the beauty of writing trought your posts and way you think.
So never forget that you were put here on this planet to be yourself!!

Night!

I want to talk about night and what people see in it.

Yup it's a black hole that doen't starts anywhere or finishes anywhere, it's just there...

Sun is tired, and he has to go to bed! Just kidding haha!

Night is here for us! To rest, relax and enjoy! Night is there for inspiration! And why? I would say, because it is mysterious! We can't tell why, but we can tell that in the night everything comes to us! We don't have to fight for a dream or thoughts that come to us in the night. I would say that night is our poem!

And I'm so glad that I can hear him! I'm so glad that I can talk, speak to him (please don't take this in a mad/strange way, cuz I'm talking metaphorically)

A lot of people talks about beauty of the night, because we don't know how she (I like to say that night is a beautiful maid, hidden in the dark) looks like, but we do hear her!

And something dark is very magical (dark, i mean beautiful dark)! And magic is something that doesn not exists, but we can feel it! (hope that you understand what am I talking about) 

Even Lady Gaga talks about it!! I just love her!!! She wants to marry the night, be different and don't give up, because night is something strange but beautiful!

And I like that!!!

So I challenge you to go out one night for a walk and feel this beauty (I have to say, that will sound stupid, but sometimes I'm afraid of the dark, but not in the nature, because you see how everything is resting-flora, fawna) and when you feel it enjoy for few moments! And then you'll hear her every night before you fall asleep, she'll never leave you!

P.K

Black swan!!!

I have to, because I always die in my mind when I watch it!!!

Let's begin with the opening!

Spotlight on a girl, lonely but happy and full of life! Alone in the forest-emty stage with fog! When you see her, you know who is she! She's Odette the most beautiful girl in ballet world if you ask me. And we see that same pureness in Nina ( the central character), she is that innocent girl, which wants to be there in the spotlight; but there is that little thing that doesn't get her there; she can't let her go; but by that, I mean, I still feel that she is totally in the character, but she doesn't let that one little piece get in. (back to swan lake) But then there comes an owl! Rothbart, the great wizard as we know him! Who wants her!!! So he turns her into the most beautiful and pure creature: the swan! ( I mean who would not like to be a swan people!) She is sad...In the Black swan story, there is her teacher Tomas. She sees him as Rothbart (bad and evil), but he really wants her to be perfect (Rotbart gets that by turnig Odette into a swan), but she just can't let that happen. (Tomas does thst on the wierd way, by sex :/ )

Lily!! She's just great and sweet and she can dance! It's just Nina who's crazy!!

But Nina sees her as Evil, dark side that wants to bring her down.

And here we have it! The Black swan! 

Odette can't fight her (Odille/the Black swan) and Nina can't be her (Black swan), we have two different sides in two different stories. But let's don't forget that Nina is crazy and Odette is not. So Nina has "power" in her to bring the evil out...and Odette...she's a little virgin-the beautiful one :)

And here we have it! Here two stories separate and each one go in the different direction. So Nina has it! Strength to bring an evil twin out of her, but Odette she is too nice; So two stories with same beginning, different meaning and...same end!

So Nina has it, she is a black swan too!!! She is evil, mad and crazy, but this is too much for her, just too much!! She gave everything out of her to be perfect, she tasted the dream for a moment, but...like we wake up from dreams, she had to wake up from hers, but the part of them was true...blood was true,but not in a bathroom, but on her skin! 

Back to Odette; she lost the prince, the only thing she could love in the world (as the half swan, half maid) She tasted the dream too for a moment, but the future was not on her side. No! The only thing that could save her and everybody was...her own death!! Guys, she never looked suicidal! But love makes you do stange things if you ask me.

So she runs on the edge of glory and look at Rothbart, then at the prince and then at all swans there.

There is no other way, she felt it! Love! She felt love!! When she realise that, she jumps from the edge and nobody sees her again! 

Nina is feeling that moment as Odette/the white swan, but not just in her head...she is really dying!! Now she knows that it was too much for her, too much for her to take. She is standing on the edge she sees all theatre in tears even her mum is crying...now she felt it, perfection, she was perfect!!

Now, we don't know what happened after, is she ok? Did she die? Did she survive?

I know that is not the "ending" end, but in my view is the perfect end!!!

Now another point of that movie, is ballet!! The most beautiful art on this planet!! But I'm not saying that because we see that on stage, I'm saying that, because of all hard work back there in the ballet studio!

And in the movie we can see and we can also, accually feel that beauty on stage, because we know what happened behind all that makeup, costumes and set and perfectly danced art!

And I hope it's not too much, but I wanted to present you the way I see, feel that amazing movie!!!

Hope you guys love this movie as much as me!!

P.K.