Summer Break! DO WHAT YOU WANT!

Hey guys!!

Yes it's summer and my school just ended (for two months...)!
Well I have to say that I don't have any topic today, but I'll try to write about something, so if you have nothing else to do, come and join me hahha!
Well, I have no idea what I'll be doing in the summer, back at home everything's quiet and still, nothing big's happening, but I like that kind of a still life, so peacefull and greatful. It's almost 2 in the morning, but I don't have time to sleep, I have a whole summer to do that haha!
So, I talked so some of my friends and found out, that not everybody is happy to be back home for two months, we are like from every other corner of our country haha and it's not that big (the country), I must say, but you know the distance is decent, so we don't just travel from one corner to another and it literally takes two hours to drive across, but if you have nothing to find there, why would you go haha. And you know in the capital city were I'm going to school, like I said we are from every corner of our country and now we are parted, but that doesn't really bother me that much, I mean, I said it before I have like two persons inside of me: a "party" one or "interesting" one, the the other one is that one that is writting, the still and peaceful one, so I like it when I'm alone. You know, I'm white and lonely haha and not every one's like that, some actually have a "life" that they left for two months! And the past came back, chasing them; when you're home everthing can attack you from your past, and for a whole year you could ignore it, but now where will you go, where will you hide from it?
And I think that's the big fear. Like some people are "homeboys" (if thats the right word :/ ) and some like to start again, start over all the time and both of those situations can be good, even great if you ask me, but if "homeboy" goes out, he will be afraid and if "if/then" (I used this term from the musical if/then cuz I think that is has some sama things, a person who is not sattle woth their lifes, "why should I be happy with this life IF I can live better, find new better things to live for" and that other part is THEN) person sattle somewhere he'll get upset too. And some of my friends are like that, and they met with old friends and it was like they didn't know them, like they met for the fist time all over again, and of course you won't feel good about that and it will be strange and weird and you won't have nothing to talk about or they would just talk to others and you'll be like standing there quietly.
And I think that should not ruin your summer, cuz there are so many things that you could do, just enjoying yourself and if you'll be troubling yourself with things that will get you down and try to fit in, even if you know that won't work, you just have to relax and just look at the things that are in front of you and are making you happy! You don't have to fit with anything that you don't like right now, you are free, you can do whatever you want, enjoy and be happy, go to the field and dance with the sun and you'll feel how happy you can be, cuz there is so much more to enjoy then just wait for those two months to pass.
And I know, if you are reading this you would probably think: "ummmmm NO! Everyone is happy that the school's over..." Yeah everyone is, but not everyone's happy that they won't be with their friends, some even cry and I must say, I'm not a very much of a sad and crying person myself, so I don't get really upset about leaving for two months, I mean we will still see each other in two monts, not a big deal, but for some it trully is a big deal and they just have that in their heads and everythnig else is wrong, boring and sad, even if it's the best thing, now that's a bit extream but you get what I'm trying to say right?
Some people make plans for summer and they are sad too, cuz the plan usually doesn't work, cuz you can't plan everythnig and deep inside you know that, but you still do it, cuz you wanna be organize, and that's okay, but sometimes you just have to be a little spontaneous!
I say, that you should live and enjoy things that are around you, never get bored, cuz you can do so much right now, if you are reading this and you are already bored I'm telling you stand up! and DANCE, SING, CLEAN, GO OUT AND, AND ENJOY never forget to do what you want, now's the time to be whoever you want to be and do whatever you wanna do, no metter what everyone says!
And with all that drama talk I'll just put this Gaga poster that I made for her DWYW song, to give you something that you can remember from this post.
Never forget: ENJOY! if you won't do it now, when will be the time?

And yeah I found somethnig to talk about yay! I knew there was a reason the open up Blogger!
haha so have fun and hope I'll get idea for the new post soon!

One more thing, if you want me to talk about something in particular, you can comment it and I sure will!

And I must say thank you to everyone who is sharing my blog with friends and getting me more views! Thanks you so much! And I'm glad that you enjoy it :)

Another quick thing: What do you think about new look of the blog???? Like it? Too much??

Enjoy your summer

Pa3k :D

My story

I just found out that I've never told you my story and it's going to be a story about finding happines

Once upon a time, there was this house, no it wasn't a big one, but it was very long, it had big living room, full of wonderful things that you could just look at, and in the back, there was that very special room, full of wonders, full of magic, but in there there was that special spell called love, everybody living in this house could feel it, cuz the door was always open, even the people who would visit it, were changed but this magic.
But some dark day that magic was gone...gone for good...The beautiful long house, became just a blank new page in the boring book that nobody would take down from the library shell. So dad and two boys moved out, cuz they didn't want the blank page they wanted a new story, they wanted a new world full of new wonders. They moved to this garden, it used to be called The Garden Of Colours, but there were no colors to be found, no blossoms, just empty grey....
One day, the little boy came to the door of this garden, he entered. He was holding this little doll in his hand, it was devidet in two halfs, one was bright, he named it The Kid of The Sun, and the other one was dark, almost black, he named it The Beautiful Creature of The Dark. Oh how he loved that doll! He couldn't live without it, it reminded him of that magic in this old long house. He entered the garden. He couldn't believe how could somebody abandoned it, it looked so beautiful, but still bear. He was walking along that grey labyrinth and he found out that he had lost his toy, his one and only memory of the magic and that special spell, he ran back, but he couldn't find it, it was gone...like that magic...
He was crying so hard nobody could stop him, nobody. Through the time wound healed, but never disappeared.
One day it itched him so hard, that he went to this door again! He pushed them, and entered, it was even more terrifying then before, all the spiders and the voices were there, but he grabed all of his courage and went through the labyrinth again. He was walking and thinking when he suddenly triped and fell. It hurnt him so bad, the blood showed on his knee, when he saw through what he triped, he blew all the dust away from it and found his old charm-the doll! He picked it from the groudn, and while he was getting up, he beheld a doorhandle, it was a beautiful wooden doorhandle. He cleaned the dead climber of it and he found the beautiful hand-carven wooden door. He tried to opened it but he couldn't it was locked. He was sad again, he took his doll and turned away. He notised that around doll's neck there was a string from which the key was hanging. "How did it get there?" he asked himself and took it from the doll, he turned back to the door and placed the key in the lock. "It fits!" As he was tuning the key the light started to appear from behing the door, it was so bright that he had to cover his eyes to open the door, he stepped through it! He was very curious to see where did he come to, so he uncovered his eyes and saw this magical word! It was a garden full of blossoms, colors and magic, the one from the old long house. Blossoms came to him and said: "finally the saviour came and unlocked this ugly door that was keeping us from the world, that locked us here, so the world could be blank as the new page, the sad page in the book!"
All creatures ran out on the grey garden and filled it with colors, happiness and MAGIC. The boy was happy again as all the people around him. And the magic wasn't cought in this little room or behind wooden door. Magic was free as this child was! Magic saved him, and made him happy as he was before!

The end

Heros, Our heros

I just watched The Pretty One and I have to say that the film is damn good! You have to believe me, cuz it's pass 3 in the morning and I'm still up, cuz I wanna talk about stuff, like you know I loke to do :)
Well I'll start with this.
Who are our Heros? Who are Heros...
They are people that we worship, thy are people that inspire us, they are people that we want look alike, they are people who always have place in there hearts for us, even if they don't know.
But...(there is always that but) Who are you? If I ask you who are you or is I ask you Who is your Hero, which aswer would be answered first?
I'm going to take a guess the one about your Hero, cuz you have so much to talk about his/her, cuz your mind is exploding, just when I say the first letter of their name right? But when I ask you who you are, for the first 5 seconds you're going to be quiet right? Cuz you can't find the right words. Now I have my heros and you have yours and I'm not saying that that's wrong or anything, I'm just saying that you think enough about who you are, what are the things that descripe you.
I mean in The Pretty One we see just that: A perfect sister, with perfect life, and a weird sister who cleans after her father, but when the perfect one dies the weird one becomes the perfect one and finds that she wants to know about herself by pretending that she is someone else, but that someone else is just perfect why not stick to it, why not?
I mean, some people overlook something that they become that thing, but what about the person that is trying to stand up, be something new, what about that person?
You know people have a lot of copies of other paintings and yeah I just found that out in this film the father and the "weird" (sorry I know that that weird word is horrible, but you know what I mean) sister are painting reproducions of those famouse paintings, and she isn't so good with that, as she is not so good at faking that she is her sister, cuz she is someone else, she is something diffrent, something new, something weird if you want, that nobody else is. And everyone should be like that, everyone should thing about who they trully are, what are their goals, how they want to live.
But sometimes as I sad we just forgot, we don't have words about ourselves, but so many words about others, we are pushing ourselves in some corner of our body and forgetting that this persen is still actually in there, but when something poke that person and all problems come back we just crush, we are in pieces, and who is picking them up? Psyhiatrist! Why cuz we are not strong, cuz we didn't get crushed enough to find a way to pick ourselves up, we were pushing ourselves in the corner, behing old curtains, behind the scenes where no camera can come.
And PSYHIATRIST will save us, of course cuz they are paid to do that, and we have too much money, and we are to dumb to find ourselves. I mean what kind of animal are we? A stupid one, cuz we need someone who we don't know to tell us who we are? DO WE REALLY WANT THAT? Sometimes we think we are not strong, that we are losing, that we are going to be beaten by ourselves, just becouse we are too afraid to find out who we are.
We are afraid to find a lightness in the dark, we are afraid to be that light, we are sitting in the corner and crying cuz "there is no way out", but there are open doors, through them you can find another way, another path of your life, you just have to want it. It's not about the need, it's about the want, it's about your choise, it about you!
It's about WHO YOU ARE!

another thing I will of course post a poem with it, I wrote it like last week and I winished it like right now!
it's

The Light

When I wake up in the garden of colors each day,

the world is painted all in dreary grey,

No flower nor blossom,

Nor bird has come,

To open up the paradise,

To open up your eyes,

To see, to believe,

And love and never leave.

But the time had passed before you opened up your eyes,

the truth is hidden behind all the lies.

The beauty is now gone,

even smiles,

even friendships among the men,

they've used all the wiles,

tricks, ruses, killed again,

it was all gone anon!

The darkness came and ate the bright sun from the sky,

The colors are stolen and I could die,

But I'm somehow still here,

I'm not broken.

From the darkness I can appear,

Now I wear the dark tolken,

I know what this means,

It means, that I am the light that now appears,

I am the sun, not another color, nor another blossom,

I am the one, who will make thing right,

I am the one who will bring up the light!

Be your own light, find it and shine with it!!