Looking, Seeing and Understanding

How do we see?

What are we looking at?

Do we see it?

What is it?

Is it a chair?

Yeah, who gives a fuck, let's go!

*Is it a person that needs help?

Yeah, who gives a fuck, let's go!

How do you feel about that? What do you think about that? Are we any different? 

I guess I feel like this is true, I feel like a lot of people see blindness. They see nothing but, oh yeah their persona.

Why can't we all draw?

Have you ever asked yourself why can't you draw a line similar to chair’s?

This will not be any scientific fact or anything, but my wise thinking. Don’t take this as whatever, just think when you read.

I think it's because you don't really see it, you actually see what you draw, even if you don’t think so. Did anybody teach you how to look at something, how to see with your eyes and with your mind?

Is it so hard to draw a curve line or a shape of a nose? I mean can’t you see how simple it is to just imitate the shape and draw a line?

No. Not all of us see like this, because nobody taught you how to see things.

And you would say: “Yeah, but nobody taught you too.”

That is not quite right. I’m an artist, I draw. And teachers are helping me to understand shapes and SEE shapes in different things.

Let’s say you see a fountain, and you think: “Wow I could never draw a shape like this!” And then I see a square, a circle, and a triangle.

Is it so hard to find those shapes in things?

Now days people see through the eyes of publicity, eyes of money, eyes of fortune, ... But not many people see happiness, luck, kindness.

Do you see how happy you are?

Just think for a moment. You have an amazing family, which loves you, you have food every day on the table, you have a place to stay in, you like to call it home, you have amazing friends with which you have amazing time when you are together.

Oh, aren’t you happy? Is that not enough for you? What? You want a castle? Money? Boyfriend, which will make your life perfect, heal all cuts on your hand, make your life a dream?

Would you gave up your amazing life, family for that?

Are your hands really that not important?

Are you loving the pain, blood or what? I don’t get it, what is wrong with you?

Oh! You’re blind! You have happiness in front of you, why don’t you open your eyes and see this sunshine around you. What is your problem? Do you really have to be a drama queen, who doesn’t see two inches in front of her?

Why do we have to make our lives so miserable? Why do we have to bring up the pain and morn about every little thing that isn’t right or doesn’t suites us?

Why can’t you open your eyes and see this beauty of world, beauty of your life, happiness?

Speaking of happiness if you will sit in the bathroom cutting your hands, happiness will just walk by you, and you won’t see it, no you won’t…

Unless you stop for a second, forget every little thing that troubles you and look, spread your eyes and see in what dream you are living in! You have everything that you need even more, even things you won’t pick up even ones in your life, but you are still unhappy. Mourning will not bring you peace, mourning will not bring you happiness or joy.

You have to find it. You are standing here in front of this big wide World, on which you are walking your whole life! Now open your eyes and look at shapes. Don’t be blind, see within! Don’t be stupid, be just eccentric!

Keep them open and don’t forget to use them!

The night circus!

Hi guys!

I don't think that will be the review of the book (simply, because I didn't finish it yet :/ ) but it will be looking at this book from my point of view!

So I'm really mad for everything victorian (well not the toilets...)! I like the feshion, art, houses, life, feeling, food... and now the new love is here: Magic in the victorian era. Not that I believe in magic, but it would be so much fun if magic would exist!
I always loved witches, magic everything that farytales has hahaha. And with magic comes the mystery of it, and how can somebody tell or explain magic to us. And magic can be good, bad or something in the middle! (Little in the middle!) But it will still be beatiful, even if it's bad.

And the next mistery is of course the circus! Nowdays the circus has lost it's power if you ask me! Now we see a circus like doing weird stuff with animals and blah blah blah... But like 100 years ago that was different, there were small people, there were mermaids (oh, I could write about them, maybe another time :) ), there were illusionists and all weird stuff.
Now we don't have this anymore, because we have science and we know about those stuff. But in the victorian times that was totally different, people were amazed by the let's say darknes of the circus, by the feeling of it, by the mistery that circus had.

If I could go back in time, I would definitely visit the circus! I wonder how it would be...

well that's why I'm reading The night circus!
It has that feel of magic, the book sucks you in it and you are there, standing in fron of that big, weirs, white flamed bonfire! And there are those little paths that leads you/takes you to the different performances and I think that's magic! That journey through your imagination.

I'm not going to talk a lot about the story, cuz I don't know how it ends, but I really like (I just don't like that he-Marco loves two women :/ weird, but I'll let the story to tell me and takes me where ever it wants to)

I have to say that the book is for slow reading, so if you choose to read it, take time, maybe on the train or when your bored, coz story is big and that "biggnes" will take you through the journey that you can't imagine!
And you'll feel that you're a part of it, really!

So if you read it, or if you are reading it, tell me your thought and feeling (just please don't tell me the end)

ARTOPOP and Applause + VMA

Hey guys and all little monsters here!!

You don't know about this, but I'm very big, huge fan of Mother Monster aka Lady Gaga!!
Applause!!!!! death!!!! Love it love it love love it!!!!!!
ARTPOP!!!! CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!
VMA I almost died cuz the live broadcast didn't work, but when Gaga came up, everything worked!!

So today I want to talk about Applause and Gaga's performans on VMA!!!

I was blown away by her, song of course, costumes, past in the performans, and all rising if I can call it that way.

I'll start with the set and what I think about it in the artistic way.


I think that it shows the world which is not explored yet-the white colour ( like ARTPOP era is not explored yet) And Gaga is like a new thing in it and as we know that the set is white, she comes out in white (bloody Mary) which shows that she had been put in this world pure and innocent and she is trying to fit in and then she is black (amazing bodysuite).

 I think that that it shows her difference in that world and her desire to be different and be herself no matter what anyone thinks (you know black vs white) And as the performans is going on, we see her in more colours and diffrent costumes (presenting different eras and her past) in my mind that shows how she grown and how she is growing from that boring white world and how she is exploring herself as a person and as an artist, but still, there is the white world behind her-the world that doesn't understands her. And there are dancers in black too, in my mind they are us, little monsters, which helps her being up there between the stars and she is the queen,because she is a fighter and we love her so so so much because of that.

Now I wanna start where I finished in the set, about her being queen.

If anyone watched the interview on Good morning America with Gaga then you know what she means about the song and how and why did she wanted that clown make up on.

Gaga is a special singer and performer and special person. She doesn't want fame or money, she wants love and she wants to be loved and she wants to take that feeling on stage and strew this feeling between Little monsters and make them feel good and special in their's skin and persona (that's why I love her so so much)
And she made/wrote Applause because she wanted to show fans that she has something beautiful to give them and live because of that and I think that she shown that, she really did!

So if anyone has their own opinion or thoughts about that, I wanna see your comments!

Be happy, don't be afraid to be yourself, keep on and stay tuned!!

P.K.

Beauty of writing the blog!

Hey guys!

Today I'll talk about the blog and me blogging. Why did I start? What do I want with that? What do I think about it?

1st how did I start? Well while I was looking for some answers and thoughts about some theme (I don't remember what was I looking for) I saw/read some posts on the Blogger and they were about them selves and their's days and stuff like that. If you read post here on Blogger you probably know what am I talking about.
So I didn't want that, I'm not famous and nobody is interested in my day or what am I doing so I started with posting my paintings and then I left for like a year or something like that. And if you read my blog (talking to those two person, who are reading me; btw thanks for taking the time for reading this) you know that I write when I have something to say, so my post are written like every week or maybe not, it depends on when I have the inspiration to write.

So for today, I'll be one of that other persons who are talking about them selves (don't take me wrong I talk about myself too, but "in the different way" (?), hope that you know what am I talking about)

My first post was I think Somertime sadness, I know it was lame and boring, but in that moment I felt like dying... hahaha bored, but my feeling-and I was talking about myself. That start was something that fell of me, cuz I wanted to talk and speak and tell people something, even 1 or 2 I don't care, I just hope they like it :). Something pushed me to speak and talk and inspire people trough my thoughts and way of living my life and then I started with things that inspires me or helping me or even troubles me and trough my process of living I want to teach you and help you with some stuffs/things. And as you know I always start with the opening (sometimes question, sometimes just a pologue) and then I start to talking about this perticular thing with meaning in my life or how do I do that and then I try to inspire you and give you some tips to be better at this, to don't be afraid of doing that, everybody make mistakes (like today I got sharpie on our leather couch, thank goodness nobody was hope, so I had time to clean it, uhh Hallelujah that was something)

these are some of the posts, in others I talk about my look through the movie, or book (I really haven't done the book yet, but I'll do it, already have a book :) ) so throught those posts I want to bring your eye in the hidden place of movie and maybe see it from the other engle, maybe better one (i don't know, nobody complained about it, should I add yet? )

So this is my prospective of seeing my writing and here it comes tips and tricks about it.
Maybe don't listen to me, cuz I don't have a lot of viewers, but if you do here is some of my tips!

1.Don't be afraid of doing the blog, if you're doing cuz you like and not because you want to be popular and shit, I mean along the way that could or should happen (didn't yet with me)

2. Write and thing about things that you know and love, for those you don't know ask or instructe yourself about it.

3. Don't ever foget about your feeling, put that in your post so you give something more something special in it

4. Don't be sad if not a lot of people are reading you, you write from your heart and people who see and read that can be happy, even one or two

5. Don't rush while writing, cuz thoughts comes in different moments

6. Be happy that you have a blog and you can write from your heart not just about your day and how were you washing the dishes :/

I hope that help you in some way and here is the final touch to that post...the epilogue

I love writing the things that I love and the beauty that those things has. You'll get the beauty of writing trought your posts and way you think.
So never forget that you were put here on this planet to be yourself!!

Night!

I want to talk about night and what people see in it.

Yup it's a black hole that doen't starts anywhere or finishes anywhere, it's just there...

Sun is tired, and he has to go to bed! Just kidding haha!

Night is here for us! To rest, relax and enjoy! Night is there for inspiration! And why? I would say, because it is mysterious! We can't tell why, but we can tell that in the night everything comes to us! We don't have to fight for a dream or thoughts that come to us in the night. I would say that night is our poem!

And I'm so glad that I can hear him! I'm so glad that I can talk, speak to him (please don't take this in a mad/strange way, cuz I'm talking metaphorically)

A lot of people talks about beauty of the night, because we don't know how she (I like to say that night is a beautiful maid, hidden in the dark) looks like, but we do hear her!

And something dark is very magical (dark, i mean beautiful dark)! And magic is something that doesn not exists, but we can feel it! (hope that you understand what am I talking about) 

Even Lady Gaga talks about it!! I just love her!!! She wants to marry the night, be different and don't give up, because night is something strange but beautiful!

And I like that!!!

So I challenge you to go out one night for a walk and feel this beauty (I have to say, that will sound stupid, but sometimes I'm afraid of the dark, but not in the nature, because you see how everything is resting-flora, fawna) and when you feel it enjoy for few moments! And then you'll hear her every night before you fall asleep, she'll never leave you!

P.K

Black swan!!!

I have to, because I always die in my mind when I watch it!!!

Let's begin with the opening!

Spotlight on a girl, lonely but happy and full of life! Alone in the forest-emty stage with fog! When you see her, you know who is she! She's Odette the most beautiful girl in ballet world if you ask me. And we see that same pureness in Nina ( the central character), she is that innocent girl, which wants to be there in the spotlight; but there is that little thing that doesn't get her there; she can't let her go; but by that, I mean, I still feel that she is totally in the character, but she doesn't let that one little piece get in. (back to swan lake) But then there comes an owl! Rothbart, the great wizard as we know him! Who wants her!!! So he turns her into the most beautiful and pure creature: the swan! ( I mean who would not like to be a swan people!) She is sad...In the Black swan story, there is her teacher Tomas. She sees him as Rothbart (bad and evil), but he really wants her to be perfect (Rotbart gets that by turnig Odette into a swan), but she just can't let that happen. (Tomas does thst on the wierd way, by sex :/ )

Lily!! She's just great and sweet and she can dance! It's just Nina who's crazy!!

But Nina sees her as Evil, dark side that wants to bring her down.

And here we have it! The Black swan! 

Odette can't fight her (Odille/the Black swan) and Nina can't be her (Black swan), we have two different sides in two different stories. But let's don't forget that Nina is crazy and Odette is not. So Nina has "power" in her to bring the evil out...and Odette...she's a little virgin-the beautiful one :)

And here we have it! Here two stories separate and each one go in the different direction. So Nina has it! Strength to bring an evil twin out of her, but Odette she is too nice; So two stories with same beginning, different meaning and...same end!

So Nina has it, she is a black swan too!!! She is evil, mad and crazy, but this is too much for her, just too much!! She gave everything out of her to be perfect, she tasted the dream for a moment, but...like we wake up from dreams, she had to wake up from hers, but the part of them was true...blood was true,but not in a bathroom, but on her skin! 

Back to Odette; she lost the prince, the only thing she could love in the world (as the half swan, half maid) She tasted the dream too for a moment, but the future was not on her side. No! The only thing that could save her and everybody was...her own death!! Guys, she never looked suicidal! But love makes you do stange things if you ask me.

So she runs on the edge of glory and look at Rothbart, then at the prince and then at all swans there.

There is no other way, she felt it! Love! She felt love!! When she realise that, she jumps from the edge and nobody sees her again! 

Nina is feeling that moment as Odette/the white swan, but not just in her head...she is really dying!! Now she knows that it was too much for her, too much for her to take. She is standing on the edge she sees all theatre in tears even her mum is crying...now she felt it, perfection, she was perfect!!

Now, we don't know what happened after, is she ok? Did she die? Did she survive?

I know that is not the "ending" end, but in my view is the perfect end!!!

Now another point of that movie, is ballet!! The most beautiful art on this planet!! But I'm not saying that because we see that on stage, I'm saying that, because of all hard work back there in the ballet studio!

And in the movie we can see and we can also, accually feel that beauty on stage, because we know what happened behind all that makeup, costumes and set and perfectly danced art!

And I hope it's not too much, but I wanted to present you the way I see, feel that amazing movie!!!

Hope you guys love this movie as much as me!!

P.K.

Lonely

How is to be lonely?
How is to be just you?

I'm an only child. I really am not, I have a brother, but he does not live with me, so I'm an only child.
 Yesterday I went out. I don't usualy do that (but I'm not fat or anything haha). But I really needed to ran away, go somewhere were there's nobody, just me.
And while I was walking, I was toalking to myself and thinking why. Thinking that I don't have any friend with whom I could talk about my life outside uor "friend world". For me that is really hard. I am closed person. I just want everyone to be happy, I don't want to botgher them with my problems or anything, but sometimes something just fall out from me, randomly. And then I start thinking about what I just said and how did people feel about that. So for me that is really hard.

AND I THINK THAT I THINK TOO MUCH!

I have friends and they are pretty much open to me and to others, I have no idea how can they be like that. And sometimes that is just great, I mean you can say whatever you want like: I'm cutting my self. I would never tell that to anybody. I would be ashamed of that, and I know that this is not right, but... I just could not. I would have to have a magical friend to talk about this stuff to him/her. And I honestly respect those people which can talk and talk about them selfs; I do that with myself, I am talking to my self; I am talking to myself too much! I hate that about my self, 'cuz I can't open to anyone and tell her/him what is going on in my life; Like I can't stand to look at her, or That b**** is so f- lazy and not greatful that I could kill my self when she does those thinks, I mean people I could not say that to anyone (I just did, but that's not the point) and ruined their moment (I hope that I didn't ruined yours-sorry for that :/ ), I mean I like to help when somebody tells those things to me and I don't have problem with that, but I have problem with telling this to someone. It is really hard.

And when I think about this stuff, I feel so lonely; and I realise that I'm talking to myself like I don't have anyone to talk to, like I'm a freaking ghost. I really don't talk to much (or I talk too much) to people that I know about my feelings, about how am I going trought my life and if someone ask me: How am I doing in my life or something like that I usualy tell them that I'm god (like not the God, but like figure of his) that just ends everything.

Lonely. what word is that. In my sight that word means that you have a lot of people around you, but not people who would listen to you, who would help you. I'm sure that they would, but that's not how I feel (if you know what am I talking about). Being sure is like yeah they would, of course they would. But what I feel is, in what position whould that put them in? in what position whould that put me in. It's like magical, cursed circle.

And I don't know what to do, I'm just pretending that I'm "god".

And I'm being lonely.

Maybe that will change, maybe I will open in the future, maybe I won't be "god" anymore.

But if that happen, would I be the same person that I am? Person who can help, person who can tell everybody that everything will be ok, but not ok for me, because that is not my moment?

How would that be?

I'm afraid of that. I'm afraid to think about myself, my inside oneself. I'm afreid of that.

And I hope that you aren't.

And if you are. I would be happy to say: Oh, don't be. Open up, people are going to see you then, people are going to know you then.

But I'm sorry I just can't. Because I don't do that.

You are amazing!!

I just wached that video, here is the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5uvFMGh4_Ag

I just want to say: You are amazing. If you are reading this remember: YOU ARE AMAZING!
Thank you for being in the World, thank you for making changes in the World, thank you for being anyones friend.
Thank you for seeing people that are in pain, thank you for being you and thank you for not caring for bullys, thank you for living your life, YOU ARE AMAZING!! Remember that!
Here is another video. If you can, wacth and read this with the pictures on the video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_Am4cHMBKM&feature=share

Read this with the pictures (I wrote it :) )

It's hard to say goodbye, it's hard to leave everything and run away, it's sad to look how people are dancing but you don't, then you just let tears go, then you just have to sit on the edge of mountain and look how stars are shining just for your sadnes, it's just like you are holding the whole world on your shoulders, it's like you are at the party and nobody notises you, it's just like watching people go, beacuse of your protection, it's like you're a colour in black and white world, it's like crying for your friends and family, it's like being alive and watching all those dead people in front of you, it's like being alone in the universe, it's like squeaking for saving someones life, but nobody hears you, it's like being a man without a family, because some ˝animal˝ killed them, it's like to die in front of the water, because you were too exhausted to drink it.

 IT'S SAD.

But our tears can make a river of hope and then you see what life is for, it for leaving things behind and finding new ones, which makes you happy again and again. 

WITH THAT WE ARE BILDING OUR LIVES!!!!

And there is one thing that I'd like to say. IT GETS BETTER! Your life won't be over, when you finish high school, your life will go on, your life is going to be amazing, because you are AMAZING, don't forget that, please just don't forget that!!!

Have a very nice day everyone!!!

On Stage

Have you ever felt that?

When you walk on stage and everything changes! Everything it's like you're in the differen place, there is a whole different atmosphere. I believe that this feeling happens because of the adrenalin, which push you in the whole different direction, for me this direction in good, always better that what I think is going to be.
So what I want to say about this, when you're back stage and you're waiting for your entrance, you are probably thinking about your role, your part and you think how are you going to bring this character to life.
But when you come on the stage, you do exacly opposite that you thought you're going to do (just don't do that with choreography!!) and mostly that's a good think, because your body reacts totaly diffrent, because of the adrenalin, as I said and because of your presents on the stage and standing in front of all that people and that's what makes you present your role the best as you can.
Adrenalin gives you more power, more self-confidence and kills your fear and bad thoughts that you have in you, before you step in front of the audience.
And that is the best thing in our body, something that kills everything bad in you, something that gives you "dry land" under your feet.
But please don't forget about your preparations for your role, that is the one and only certain thing that you can prepare yourself for, so make sure that you know the part as well as you know the alphabet!
And that will make your entrance on stage even better, more sure in yourself, more self-cofident and more ready to take any mistake from you or your co-actors and turned in to something that makes sence.

So three things to remember:
1. Learn your part
2. Feel the character
3. and build your self-confidence trough your mistakes!!

If you do all those things, you can be the best actor that you can be.

So have fun with acting, but don't forget those things!! :)

My first theater experience

Hey guys!

Today I want to write about my first experience with theater and my theater life haha. In my country our school system is a little bit different (elemantary-primary school-9 years (starts with age of 6 or7 ends at 15 years old) then high school 4 years and than college another 4 years) So in my first class we went to the theater in nearest city. And we saw The Snow queen and it was just amazing!!! I still remember some of the scenes and I got some of the pictures!. So I was so fascinated about theater life and that play and at age of 7 I made (wrote-tell (I did not write well at that age haha) directed, designed and I played the Snow queen) this play in my own view and it was not that good, I was crying...because my mask riped of, in the middle of the show, but we had to went on... So that was first trying. The second one went very well! We made The Little Red Riding Hood and I was a girl with the hood! hahah! Yeah I know that I'm a guy but all the girls just didn't know how to act, so someone has to do it...And then I made some little show for christmas and story times and stuff and then I made a bellet Cinderella, I still don't know how did it,  I did that was in fourth class. I was a prince. Oh Oh, yeah one of my friend was a ballerina so she knew it and it went well but some of the acters still did not know that you just can't talk with the audience in the middle of the show.
And then I had a little break, you know school stuff. And in last grade, that was last year I made a musical called A christmas carol by Charles Dickens, and I was working like all summer for that and the whole year before for just TWO shows hahah, but is was amazing! I was Scrooge! We had an amazing teacher and amazing "crew" yeah I got just one time slipper in my head so it was great haha. And we filmed it, which was not ideal, because a man who filmed us...well I hate him and the dvd cost like a whole fortune and I did not want him, but he came in I still don't know how... So That is my theater life and I have to say that I am writing The Snow queen again! And I hope that someday it is going to be on a stage. :)

Sassy Weather Girl

I just watched that movie. It is that kind of movie that from the beginnig you know how it will end. But it is so much more.
You see this character, she is amazing! The movie should be a comedy but it is so much more, so much! Of course it is not a Hollywood movie, because it is not the shit! And I can say that! Don't care what anybody thinks, but Hollywood is all about money!
Back to the movie. It is amarican, can you imagine? There is no action there is no sexy sex, there is life there is love. And if you ever wached Revolutionary road you know what I am talking about, because the movie is amarican but Hollywood did not wanted so Britain toke it and here it is. It is an amazing move, movie about life, real life. As so it is Weather girl. They toke to characters and they shown us what is love, because we are going in victorian ages or let's say 16th Century. Husband= money+.... am, let's say money. I know that not everyone is like that, but there are many people like that, so was Sylvia (the character in Weather girl), but then everything changed because she met a friend of her younger brother. And they had sex (not sexy sex in my eyes) they fell in love and they did not know that and her friends judged her. She was "cold" as they say in the movie, but we don't see her like cold, we see her like not fully grown or wanting to much, or wanna be someone, but then of course everything changes.
So that's the movie that everyone should see or movie like that. I mean I like it, it's not the best movie, but it is a movie to watch. It is a life movie.So if you get a chance, watch it, maybe you will find something for yourself like I did. :)

Writing

You have to be born for that!!
or try VERY VERY hard!!

So what can I say about writing?
Hmh, imagination is something what everyone has (dreams, thoughts,...) But there are people, who can tell imagination in word on paper. And this is the greatest job for me... I believe; let's say that is on second place, but it is an amazing job, because jo have no limits, you have no barrier ( I don't know if that even is a word), so what I am trying to say is that writing is something what you have in your soul, what you know the best how to do (an essey, songs, stories, novels)
That is something what makes you disappear in your world, in your little room with electric fan, because you are dying of heat!

 Writing is something that substitute an alchol for me, haha ( and please don't think that I drink, because I don't)

And you just can't write all the time. You have to get an inspiration and write it down on a paper or phone. But that is something that I don't do ( or do very occasionaly) : / So do that and brings your thoughts to life.

For sometime I thought that this is something what everyone can do, they just need to focus, but when I was watching Smash ( yeah I know, I'm mad for it) There was this amazing song, that brought tears in my eyes, because I saw what writing really means, I saw that this is a true talent, that not everyone has and I am grateful for that!

And there is not much in this song, that told me this, it was a relationship between a writer and composer, it was a situation between those two characters that brought this song to life.

So here is the lyric to this amazing song:

                                                              "The Right Regrets"

A writer has the empty page
Where he can set the scene
He puts the actors on the stage
Or on the movie screen

The characters all say the words
The writer wants to hear
And then, my friend
A happy end

But when the writer steps outside
That room where he is king
He can't control when lives collide
Or what the lovers sing

And so he hides behind his words
The one place he belongs
And in black and white
He can rewrite the wrongs

Where he can find the strength to say
What those he loves should hear
And just erase mistakes she's made
Then make them disappear

Where he can change the plot
So he's a hero, not a louse
And when the curtain falls
There's not a dry eye in the house

A writer hopes to leave behind
A work no one forgets
And when he writes, "the end"
To find he has the right regrets

A writer has the empty page
Where he can use his pen
To mend his heart
And try to start
Again

This song is originaly written by Marc Shaiman and Scott Wittman

And if you want to hear it, here is a link (Debra Messing is singing!!):

http://www.youstube.com/watch?v=txAOVa_QRu8

Theater!!!

Can you imagine?!

Standing on a stage, talking to the audience. This is the best feeling. Even to those who are afraid of performing.
But just close your eyes. Imagine, that you are the person, who you admire, someone who you could never be. Someone who can do all sorts of things that you can't, someone from whom you can learn something

Theatre allows you to be that person, theater alows you to show people how you can see trough another eyes, do different things. It shows you, that you are not the only person in your body. (don't take this on a weird way...)
No, there are so many persons inside you, you just have to let them get out, you just have to let them be, who they are.
Let's say that you get a script. You see a character on the page. But that is not true, on page you see just a discripton of a person.
Sit down and think of it, try to bring this discription to life, pull somebody else from your body, be someone who you are not, be someone who do you want to be!
And believe me, you CAN find any character in person that you want to be, don't be afraid, please just don't try to move on stage like a joke, or maybe like "you". Because theater isn't just about pretending. Is about learnig about you and learnig about your skills .
I know that anyone can not be an actor, but you can try and find who you are and who you can be!

Just please don't try to hard or try to much; because you can get nuts :)

The Truth!

I never understood what the word different means, until now!

You don't know yourself, until you step in the community of people. They don't know you, they don't know any of your interests or talents or thoughts. But they just judge. I really don't know why are we doing that. But not just to people, to food too.
Just think for a moment. How it would be if the food was alive? We would be in a war now!
 But we just ignore all of that. Yes, we do. We are the most dumb species on Earth. I mean, we look at hair, make up, body... But what about the heart, and things that we don't see? What about thoughts, ha? We are reading books and they are beautiful work of art, work of human's thoughts, but we don't see their message. Can you imagine, what the world would be like without them? No letters, no words, no messages...
Ones I heard in The little mearmaid:
"I just don't see how a world that makes such wonderful things could be bad."
And sometimes we forget about all those little things, things that really matters, things that are building our lives.
Now everyone who is reading this, just stop for a moment, spread yourself out on a chair, and think of your meaning in this world, of your meaning in the space.
Why should people remember you?
Why?
If I go back to The little mermaid. There is this song called Part of your world. You would think that is just a children story-movie-musical. But it's not, look, someone wants to be a part of your world!
Would you let them?
Would you let them see what is happening in your live? Can you show them something beautiful in it?
I believe that you can!
I believe that you are great!
I believe that you can make wonderful things!
I believe that you are a wonderful work od art!
Make this world beautiful!
You can do it!
Just believe in it!

New WICKED series?

Hi guys! My dear Ozians!! (yeah i'm writting about Wicked-sorry for my english  )

So I have just have seen the news on facebook about Wicked. I think that one week ago they ask us question about Elphabas name! and I know it came from The wonderful wizard of OZ author's name! And today they told that to people who didn't know that allready. So the idea just clicked in my head. Nobody has ever written about Glindas future. So I started to think of the new charecter. And what if I take Gregory Maguire's name like he did for Elphaba and create a new charecter! And the name just came to me: GEREMAJAH; OMG is vitage and it's cool and what would this charecter be doing in the new part; Glinda is sad because of Elphaba and Fiyero is Scarecrow and he ran away with Elphaba which is not really dead; so Glinda needs someone to make her happy! Now we have to look to the original story: Oh how many simbols! But the most important one is... THE YELLOW BRICK ROAD! And who did it? Oh just remember, we don't know. But I have an idea... Emerald city is like a big kingdom, what means that there are so many of royal names like dukes and ladies and so many others, and they have theirs property like estates, fields and factories. Oh what? Yeah factories, yellow bricks, dukes and Geremaja...AND HERE COMES HIS PAST! So we have the new character. All that's missing... oh yeah the story! So we have sad Glinda on celebration and we have lovely duke looking at her and he walks to her and there it is...The magic of Fairy tale... love on the first sight. Now she is older and smarter, she doesn't see a prince in him, she sees the loving heart in him. With the Question of: Whats wrong? She don't know what to say because she promised (remember the secret of Elphaba's good heart) so she just pass it... Let's go three years north  so let's go three years later on the same day when they are engaged! And she's sad again, she's in the secret room, where she keeps Elphaba's things (hat and grimmerie) And she comes there every year on the same day, but now she's is crying very laudly and her fiance Geremajah just came home and gone to look for her and then he finds her and asks that question again, but now she just can't pass it, so she tells him about the good in Elphabas heart and the true story of her and Elphaba together. Let's say that's the end of the first book. 
In the beginning of the second book the news from Glinda come to Geremajah mother's which is the true gossip girl/maid so the truth comes in the Emerald city and first they (Ozians) just don't believe that. So Glinda, which knew that and she just shouldn't opened her mouth, so she have to clean this (her) mess... and when she, like the Miniser or Gaverness of Munchinland (I think that that what she becomes) Tells the truth and in the end of the secend book she become: THE WONDERFUL/GALINDAFUL GOOD WITCH OF OZ. 
The third book is not so clear in my mind but it's going to be about: Glindas first child-girl named Windarch (little bit from Winnie Holzman) which as the public figure have to go to the specific school whitch is in Somewhere over the rainbow ok let's stop there because i have to read Son of a witch first and discover if Elphabas son can be the lover of Glinda's doughter and bring them together(Elphaba and Glinda) and they could rule the Oz together thats mine lovely ending!

hope you like it and comment if you know about Elphabas son please

Smash!

I was happy last year when I descovered the show Smash, hello broadway on tv people! And I'm that kind of person, that when I see something I want it. But not like store want it, but make want it. (like Coraline doll or Spiderwick's field guide,...) So I said I will do it, I am gonna write a script for Bombshell (if you don't know that is a musical that they are making is Smash) so I did it in two weeks... And some say that is not good, or that it need a lot of work. But F them, I don't care what people think, I care what I think.
And then suddenly the Smash was over, really over!! I did not cry or anything but I was deeply sad. And then I was proud of my script. And now I am too.
And then when I was on the top, someone always shows out to bring you down, but I don't blame them. One almost called the police, because he said that I copied his script and I did not even see it, because he never posted on. But than I said ok, if you have problem, I don't want to hear them, so I change it! Yes I did, and then, the new comment was: "It still needs a lot of work bla, bla ,bla." But I think that is great I love it I am pround of my self.

I just can't believe that I wrote that! OMG! I was selfish! SELFISH! I'm not that, at least I don't want to be selfish! Such a strange word; It has fish in it. wierd!

So I apologise to everyone, who read that, because it was ugly! And I have to say that now I do respect "reviews" or critiques, because people have their minds and I respect their's words. I really do.

And I have to say that I talked to reviewer or critic as you would call him, and we became friend by a very strange conversation. hahaha

So I am a fool sometimes, but I am trying to be a good person. Hahaha

So if anyone wants to see it just comment below
And I hope that it doesn't suck that much : /

Summertime sadness

Summer is here, worries are gone. I am dying. I'm more winter person, that a summer one. And yeah I am born in summer, wow. I needed that.
I like to worry, I like doing somethig, writing something. Last year I was writing our musical A cristmas carol, that is a work, and now...school is over and I have nothing to do, nothing. If my parents are reding this: No I won't clean or cook, no I won't go out with my friends; No i'm just not that kind of person. I can't even draw or paint, where is my inspiration...!
OK I am crazy, it is the first free day of school and I am so worry about! Oh here we are I do worry about stuff that I really don't care about. This is so lame, but it's my first blog so I don't care about it, and I have something to do :) ;)